"I love you mom. Please, please know this. I wish it were me going through this and not you. You don't deserve this. I do. You have been a stronger voice for God than I have. You have walked a better Christian life than I have. You've been a better spouse than I have. You've had stronger faith than I have. You've read more Bible than I have. You've listened to more Biblical teachings than I have. You've given more testimony of God's goodness than I have. While you've read the Bible, I've watched tv. While you've sung praises to God, I've sang meaningless songs. While you've spent time alone praying to God, I've gone out to bars. While you've been filled with Holy Spirit, I've filled my gut with food, beer and wine. You've given generously, I've hoarded onto junk. It should be me.
It is me that deserves this disease. Not you. God knows I wish I could take your place.
But I need you to know how much I love you. And that I'm not giving up hope. My hope is STILL in God and in God alone."
Originally published to Facebook 10/10/17
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